Blahhh. I feel like I don’t know how to be happy anymore. ):
To do:
Make birthday card.Go to dollar store, and CVSGet coffee + visit Darling so he can try this caramel swirl crunch.Go to Barnes and Noble.
Go to Kohls. Tomorrow!
Dinner :)
Decided to stick it out for 2-3 more weeks so I don’t completely screw them over. =/
Ugh.. probably have to work the weekends, which I’m completely dreading. Fuck this job.
so many horrible things I want to say on here about work, but I’ll refrain.
I’m going to be late, but I don’t give a damn.
Still need to take a shower, and I’m going to get some drink at the coffee beanery by my house.. ohhhhhh wellllll! DON’T CARE.
Seriously, this place puts me in such a bad mood.
Sometimes I just want to leave town and go to a place where no one can bother me so I can think and re-evaluate things.
same.
I’m quitting work this week. This place honestly just bums me out, and I dread it all the time. I’m not happy there at all in the slightest bit.
They don’t need me anymore, so I’m going to tell them tomorrow will be my last day. I’m only there twice a week, and the way I get treated most of the time it’s not even worth the money. And some girl who has been there a shorter amount of time gets paid more than me, and it’s unfair.
I don’t care for my bosses anymore, just so annoyed with everything ther e.
There’s three people there, they can each have four shifts, or split it up however the hell they want.
I’m done, and this is long overdue.
Plus the cleaners have ruined a lot of my clothes. Ugh. Whatever, I’m done.
CNA course, and hopefully a job after that.. here I go.
I need to make changes to make/keep me happy.
random thoughts.
I feel like lately, I’m not even worth the time of anyone anymore. I’m just sick of everything. I feel like I should be doing more with my life. And I feel like I’ve lost connection with a lot of people. Like maybe people are just done with me, and have created a new chapter without me. I’ve become a meaner person, and I feel horrible all the time about that. I try to be nice, but everything just sets me off so quickly now a days. Gosh, when did being nice to everyone for me become so hard?
I really miss when I was truly happy.
I don’t know what to do with myself anymore.
I feel like nothing interests me anymore.
I’m really tired of trying.. really.
I just wanted to do something nice for you.
But, it’s all in your hands now.
Drove down Beck Road for the first time in a really long time. It killed me.
Today was just a really annoying day. Well, for the most part anyway. Blah.
Feeling like I’m being forgotten. My heart is aching.
deannajanisse replied to your post: I’m so incredibly thankful for my two nursing…
Love this. I knew Jessica in middle school and she was my locker buddy back then…really fun person :) Can you post your list if it’s not too long? If it’s like a bajillion things I won’t make you type all that out though haha.
When I get the chance, definitely! :) I might take pictures of them and post them!
